Helpless~

I want to be strong,
I want a metal heart...

but I am weak~
i cry and feel hurt easily~

I want to help,
I want to sort things out...

but i am being 'rude'
and i make things worst...

for all these while i have been 'closing my eye',
pulling through all the nonsenses...
but deep in my heart, i know it doesnt work out that way...

i want to speak up,
but i got no authority of doing so...

in the end all i can do is to continue closing my eyes so hard,
until as if im blind, until i am numb to all these shit,
or.... just put a full stop to all these shit.